~stop.thinking.about it.~

damn bored.

and its raining heavily outside that i hope it'll stop menjelang ptg ni.because i left my umbrella at home and i hv to walk to komuter nnt.huhu.


i think its time for me to change my job la.change employer.change environment.meet new people.new rules.new experience.tp takde la dlm masa terdekat ni.i did think abt changing my work before but just didnt expect it popped up this early.

the thing is..

am feeling tak selesa..

for being here anymore..a lil bit tak selesa la..

i wish i dun hv this kinda awkward feeling..sshla for me to pretend nothing happen.it was not a big deal but it did change my impression towards ***.

mgkn kalau org lain dia tak ksh..mmg la,at first,i tot it was nothing kn.tp come to think of it again,i think that was just an inappropriate action and should hv never taken place pn..

mgkn org lain boleh abaikan..but being banie,klu dia tau sst perkara yg mgkn,well,tak wajar berlaku,she cant just hide behind the books or sink herself into the chair,focus to her work ignoring the thought that once a distraction to her.

not that i want perfection or i easily do the judging,me myself pn hv my flaws tp ..

i dunno.sumtimes its just hard being me with this complicated thinking i had.tak membantu langsung..

well,we'll see..i think i stil can bear this feeling at this moment.hold it back or just buang trus.and maybe i shud learn how get rid of this complicated thinking dlu..then my mind will be ok balik.

insyaAllah.